Represented

Sometimes
Actually, all the
time
I wish I could see myself
represented 
on different types of media.

I see the models
they pick.

Beautiful // Curvy in all the right places

There isn’t a lot of spaces left for
extra rolls or
purple stretch marks peeking out of underwear
or
a double chin poking out under a smiling face

What I get is
acceptable fat,
If that even is a thing.

But I believe it
because hardly any model grazing the covers of
Torrid
Lane Bryant
or any publication for that matter

has the courage to represent me
the way I truly am.

Unapologetically fat.

cellulite // stretch marks hugging my tummy // double chin and chubby face // endless fat rolls // untoned legs // fat … fat … fat …